Greetings and Thank You   ....... Off Death Row.........
              For checking us out in writing here off death Row. My Brother! Here is the mastermind  behind all the good looks and keep of the site for me. I am dealing with lots of things....I just lost my Gradma which i wrote about.But i also just lost a close friend.A pen-pal id'e had for many years! The lose of life is so sudden some times and is very painful to handle.but with Those closest to my heart i am able to pull myselfup just a little quicker than i was able to before.And for that .I am very Thankful! Anna and Billy have helped me in soooo many ways becuze they stay in my life and thay make me press on.When i normally would just stay in bed an let time just pass me by! But knowing they are there for me and pulling for me.Along with my other Friends and Pen-Pals.I am a better person! Oh im still a Bad Ass LOL...But Know im just takeing things a little more into perspective,

   I am not about pain and hurt ! I am about  RESPECT-BEING A MAN OF MY WORD- STANDING UP FOR WHAT I BELIEVE IN ! Say What I Mean and Mean What I Say !!  My Father planted that seed in me.Well Beat it into me at first but then as i got older I Embraced it and made it mine! To be a part of my charicter an live by it ! My Dad passed away One Year ago of Cancer.And that really messed me up alot more than i thought it would have.See My dad beat and kicked me on the streets to live in San Angelo Tx. I was beat up bloody an had no where to go,As i was from Houston Tx.So i had on my T-Shirt,Shorts, Shoes an had like $5 in my pocket! He through my school books out the house an said, I was not going to live there but he'll be damned if i was not going to go to school  ! So i picked up the school books thrown all over the yard that he through out the front door.And i went across the an shoved them under the school Merry-Go-Round ! Started walking around just wondering around to remember my Uncles Dales phone number. There was a pay phone but it was all jacked up an would eat my change.Then it would work then eat the money.So i id move on.I stayed at the an all night Dairy Queen.Id have to buy a cup of water to stay in there every 3-4 hours.The people could see i was all beat up an wanted to help. Some did did with rolls an soda but that only was at night cuz its really cold at night there. And in the day id just walk around an think of what am i going to do.....Then on like the third day i remembered mu Uncles number.As my Aunt answered the phone then.They came an got me to live with them for a few weeks an then went back to Houston.An 30 days later i was locked up never to be let out again !
February 1st made  23 flat years so now im working on the 24 th an its been hell.I've seen so much Hurt an Pain... Fights-Stabbings-Rapes-Beatings-Assults of all kinds! I've seen Murder and Death. Love and Hate. Joy and Sorrow all within these walls !
Charactor and people make up what life has to give.Life may hand you abad one but its what you try an make that hand that makes the difference !  I live in a Morbid-Sad-Negative place but i choose to not live that way ! I pick myself up an lean on people i can trust an count on ! I used to to be scared and my selfesteem with eslf worth was so low.that i was willing to do anything to have someone Like me _ Love me.Respect me.That it put me in  situations and places i would have wanted to be in but i was helpless to the fear.
Now i've learned and im stronger ! I Love and I give Love! I can stand on my own two feetan be a leader to help others because i can Love Myself.So i Love others! I Respect Myself so i can Respect others!
I changed my ways of thinking and that has so much helped me sooo much ! Its easy to pray for those you Love and Care about but not so much for those trying to kill you and hurt you.I do..I started out by praying for those that have ever hurt me. Then i started praying for those that are my enemies ! And mean it ! I can deal with with whats in my face but what about that stuff i can't see an those  i can't an wont ever see those people get my prayers  too ! I still stress sometimes but i do try to live better and be a better person.I am not an Animal ! I am a Beast..I am a Big Loving Polar Bear! See those pictures of the polar Bear with the sled-dog! Thats Me !
O.K.maybe not really Me but the imaage i want to give you ! You may think of Death Row Inmates Scarey!! But im not a scarey person.I Love to Laugh an have Fun.I want to make people Happy an not Sad ! So that is what i want to give you and I Hope you will give Me just a little Joy and Happiness back !! Smile !
May Peace an Love fill you and God be with you !
            Love Hugs and all My Best to You and Yours !
                                      Will Speer  #999398    =)                                        2/11/14  (US)
                                                                                                                      11/2/14  (UK)  LOL!